The Kid Named Billy

His name was Billy.

Actually, I don’t remember his name, but I remember him.

He was around 8 years old and played on my T-Ball team. I was the coach. It was one of the many Summer jobs I had when I was in High School.

Billy (as I’ll call him) was a good player. At least in practice. He could catch, cover a base – like no other 8-year-old – and hit really well. Oh, for those of you who think it’s easy to knock a ball off a tee, just try it sometime!

But something would happen when we got to the games. Billy would freeze up. Almost like he was afraid.

I’ll never forget talking to his mom about the stark difference between Billy “the practice player” and Billy “the game day player” and how I was confused about what would be causing this.

That’s when his mom said:

“Oh, it’s probably because his dad beats him.”


I honestly don’t remember what I said next, but I’m sure I asked her to repeat what she said.

“When we get home from the games,

his dad beats him because he knows he can do better.”

And there it was. Even for a High School teen, I knew why Billy would freeze up on game day. It wasn’t the fact he couldn’t play, it was the fact of what his dad would do if he didn’t play well. If he didn’t perform.

I remember telling his mom that I didn’t mean to interfere but I didn’t think that was helping Billy.

Unfortunately, I don’t know what happened after that. Billy quit and never came back and I never saw him again.

Here’s my question.

When it comes to your relationship with God, your heavenly “dad”, are you like Billy?

We all screw up. We all make mistakes. We all sin. But do you live in fear of your mistakes and see God as an “Ah-HA GOT YOU!” God who just loves to grind you down for the bad person you are?

Can you simply not forgive yourself because you can’t allow God to forgive you either?

If you read this far, then know this:


Jesus took the beating for YOU on the cross!


Yes, you are broken (we all are).

Yes, you need saving (we all do).

But unlike Billy, God isn’t waiting to beat you down after you’re already down.

He’s waiting to hold you and love you forever and ever and ever.  




The End.

I see shattered

You see whole

I see broken

But You see beautiful

And You’re helping me to believe

You’re restoring me piece by piece

There’s nothing too dirty that You can’t make worthy

You wash me in mercy

I am clean.

There’s nothing too dirty that You can’t make worthy

You wash me in mercy

I am clean.

From “Clean” by Natalie Grant


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